Obssesive Compulsive Disordered blogger

in love again

2010-09-14T04:18:00.000-07:00

i haven't blogged since.....since Facebook and Twitter took over my life! and to be honest, i dont miss it all that much. just that suddenly i feel like writing again.

well here goes.....

I'm in love again!! hehehe no doubt its a damn good feeling, but sure there are overwhelming uncertainties despite having a better half. im feeling rite about this one, this time, feels like I've found who i want to spend the rest of my life with.

maybe its a lil too early to tell, maybe I'm just overjoyed. am i ready? ready to settle? ready to build what my mother-tongue calls 'rumah tangga'.

sigh i dunno

signing off,

love and relationships

2009-01-04T20:34:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder, the connection between love and relationship, do they work hand in hand, to sustain the 'happily ever after', and what happens when one goes sour, and what if you have either only,

i hear people separating, my closest relatives, its sad, its a pity, its disturbing, it discourages me, from finding another.

i wonder, if there is still
the 'happily ever after',
or is it just as fictional as it gets,
i wonder,
so i'll just go with the flow,
live and let live,
love and be loved,
by those i cherish most.

Gift from BALI

2008-12-02T04:24:00.000-08:00

Imran just returned home from Bali and guess what he bought me as ole ole?
That cheeky bugger...

at the office...

2008-11-02T20:05:00.000-08:00

i'm at the office...i'm bored...i'm hungry...i got tons of work...but unclear of what to do...so what shud i do? jerry's answering his call of duty....the guy is obsessed with the thing...i need to get the photobook ready for Encik Shariman to browse...i havent done shite! i'm dead meat. argh my nose is runny, my head is pening, my perut is singing, Jr wants to go pee wee but i'm too lalazy2...wat shud i do today? hmmmm lets post sum pics...yeay!!check out some fancy Bimmers at www.bimmerpost.com ....u'll want a bimmer rite now

www.ur2slo.com

2008-10-30T08:41:00.000-07:00

dear my fellow blogger, feel free to check out Jerry and I's new blog. Click HERE to check it out. i'm open to any comments and suggestions. tell us if you want us to write a review of any car we have on sale, be it from the innocent MINI One to the new BMW X6. we'll be more than happy to test drive it for you. lol in this new blog we'll be writing about our day to day happenings @ Sapura Auto...the best place to build up you career. watch that space...its the next big thing (i hope..)till then!

how a song made me feel like shit....

2008-10-26T20:46:00.000-07:00

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll outta bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it.
'Cause they’d stick up for me.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it’s broken
So they’d think that I was sleepin’ alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waitin’ for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.
I’d listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand
(Yeah you don’t understand) How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed

But you’re just a boy

selamat morning!

2008-10-22T17:48:00.000-07:00

to all my friends, family and colleagues...i'd loike to wish u all a very very good morning and semoga mendapat restu ilahi dalam apa saja matlamat yg bakal anda capai. hahahaha what am i saying!!?? love u all people....GOD bless ya'll

E92 M3

2008-10-21T20:49:00.000-07:00

i got to drive a bloody E92 M3!!! ahahahahahaha

great monday

2008-10-20T10:25:00.000-07:00

thank you en shahriman, chippy, jerry, kiran, khairil, rueben, shawn, fina, aina, syidah, jeanette, hamdan, jim, en ibrahim, kak jae, everyone and especially natasha for making my monday a funtastic day!! u guys are such good sport. u guys make my life more interesting each day...

SOLD!!

2008-10-18T16:43:00.000-07:00

cant believe it, the 325i Sports limited editon we had put in the show room lasted only 28 hours for display, after that Vimalan (our colleague at Sapura Auto) rang me up and said the car got buyer already. Initially i received an email from Syidah dat she booked the car but apparently Vimalan's customer paid deposit upfront. First cum first serve basis, what to do. Kudos to Chippy and Jerry for their timeless effort. 325i, you will be deeply missed.

more photos

2008-10-18T16:24:00.000-07:00

i dont feel like typing today. so i'll just post a few pics for your viewing pleasure. enjoy

MINI

2008-10-18T16:04:00.000-07:00

a few pics of me, jerry and a cooper as we went to subang to get our motorsports affiliation license at MAM. we were stuck in a massive jam, but its all worth it nevertheless.

Nokia E71

2008-10-17T00:23:00.000-07:00

Since I'm gonna be very busy with work and stuff. I figured I'd get myself a partner to help keep myself organized. So a trip to Sungei Wang and the next day voila, i'm RM 1500 poorer and happier. Its got so many features until now i havent figured out how to use most of them.

Pasti Api

2008-10-16T21:46:00.000-07:00

Guess what came in the mailbox today at my office? hehehe I just blardy spent 570 ringgit for a bloody flashlight!! dont ask why I bought it. I just did. Its got 120 lumens of LED power and can last for 1.9 hours continuosly. Its body is made of Aluminum Mil spec-III used by military (which is so hard that it already scrathced my wallet and cutting thru my pants) and features a Total Internal Reflex, TIR lens that focuses the beam to spot rather than flood. This is my new baby.

sorry naik lorry

2008-10-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

to all who reads my blog, i wanna apologize that i never read yours (coz i'm too busy with my own blog, work and making myself fatter) and never replied ur comments. gazillion thanks for those who bothers to read and even more for those who left comments. will try and put effort into reading urs. cheers!

project car

2008-10-16T08:46:00.000-07:00

we've got a project car that me, jerryand chippy (our boss) is currently working on. a limited edition E90 325i sports in alpine white dat we plan to sell to hard core BMW driving enthusiast. apparently BMW malaysia only came up with a few units (i refuse to mention how many due to confidentiality issues) of this car in white, so first cum first served basis. sell your house, wife and kids and head to sapura auto now coz this car is also fitted with our new BMW Performance multifunction sport steering wheel with paddle shifters, carbon interior trims, aluminum pedals and wicked looking sport stripes outside. price estimated will be under 330K and did i mention its limited edition? have a look see of sum of pics i got snapped while the car is under its cosmetic surgery.

costume

2008-10-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

this is how i dress to work...a bit of an overkill aint it? what do u think? owh that is jeanette our new MINI sales advisor. come by sapura auto MINI show room and see what more we've got to offer other than cars. hahaha

laws of attraction

2008-10-16T08:18:00.000-07:00

Its amazing how the way you think affects your surrounding, i have learn today that the way (and its the only way) to get the things you want in life is simply by thinking of it and never stop thinking of possessing it. and thinking about the things you don't want in life will only keep those things keep coming into ur life. you simply think of the things you want and not the things you dont want. and they'll come. my sister once lent me a book called The Secret written by a few people and what its says in it makes perfect sense. tho in my heart i still believe that Allah is the sole provider of every of his servants wishes, and that u obtain and gain thru prayers. but its also undeniably true that its the power of thought and the laws of attraction that acts as a catalyst fast forwarding your wishes to become true. take it from my experience, i have dreamed of working with a reputable company, date beautiful women, drive fast cars, owning the stuff i wanted and living life glamorously. well, most of them has happened and some are currently happening. i'm working with Sapura Auto (for my love of cars especially BMW), dated many women (yet to go steady), driven awesome cars and much more. i'm happy for what i have achieved yet i'm not satisfied...i have hunger for more. not to say i'm greedy, but there are just too many things i wanna do and achieve before i'm six feet under. so i keep wanting, and thinking of things that i want. until i've achieved it, i'll keep wanting or die trying. owh yeah have i mentioned that i got another MacBook Pro from sapura? Julia's back!!!

buhsan

2008-10-13T06:20:00.000-07:00

i miss sepang....cant wait for our MINI challenge race car to come and tear the strips off the circuit. this is a pic of our nite testing of the Lotus 2 eleven race car last august. the smell of burnt rubber, the deafening sound of exhausts, the babes and the adrenaline rush. BMW once came up with a tag line, "being driven is a privelage, driving is a pleasure" sorry if my writing is pointless. i'm just bored...trying not to sleep so soon letting the food i just ate digest properly. i'll just put up some pics for ur viewing pleasure and stop writing now.

XS, S, M, L, XL

2008-10-10T04:50:00.000-07:00

today I've learnt that there is also Malay for sizes...

XS : xtra sempit

S : sempit

M : muat

L : longgar

XL : xtra longgar

having so much pressure from work, I finally found sumtin to cheer me up...

first day

2008-10-06T16:36:00.001-07:00

today wud be my first day of work... not that its my first time, but i am officially and employee (argh finally), i never thought i'd land a job with Sapura Auto, but cars have been my passion ever since i was 10 years old, so to be able to love it and live it...its like a dream come true. i am getting sum kupu-kupu in the perut...but it'll all be alrite. coz everyone there is so warm and friendly, i think i'll make it thru.

parting is such sweet sorrow

2008-10-06T16:21:00.000-07:00

semalam merupakan hari yang dukacita buatku,
ku diarahkan utk memulangkan laptop company kerana ku tidak lagi berkhidmat utk syarikat tersebut,
laptop ini bukan sebarang laptop, kerana ia sebuah MacBook Pro keluaran Macintosh,
bernilai hampir 9 ribu ringgit, ku memang la tidak akan mampu utk membelinya dgn wang sendiri,
oleh kerana itu....
ini adalah message ku yang terakhir buatmu laptop ku yang techinta...

"Terima Kasih kerana sedia menemaniku di pagi hari utk menghilangkan kebuhsanan yg terlampau dan keranamu jua ku dapat menemui wanita idamanku, ku tidak akan melupakan mu dan jasa baik mu...walaupun ko kadang-kadang buat hal ngan aku, oleh itu...selamat tinggal Julia (siap bagi nama lagi tu) u'll be in my heart forever.

what raya means...

2008-10-04T21:36:00.000-07:00

- get new clothes
- get new shoes
- get duit raya
- balik kampung
- have fun with cousins
- eat like a pig
- sleep till afternoon
- eat like a pig summore
- gain two extra kilos
- eat like a pig even more

ngantuk...

2008-10-04T13:50:00.000-07:00

ku sedang ngantuk... jam menunjukkan sudah pukul 5 pagi... aku masih di depan laptop... bilelah aku nak tidok ni... tadi borak ngan nana... but she went to sleep ledi... i'm still here... typing stupid things on my blog... which i think no one gives a shit about... mata dah bengkak... esok ntah bangun pukui berapa la ni... ok i shudnt bore u anymore... aku nak tido... selamat malam... bye... ZzZzZzzZZZzzzzZZzzzzz.....

conversation....

2008-09-28T20:57:00.000-07:00

i made fren with sumone, the irony of it is that we've met once and i never tot we'd see each other again. but fate has its way...

never in my life have i met sumone so bubbly...so witty and attractive at the same time.

how long it has been since i ever felt like being my true self when i'm with sumone...

to be able to talk my heart out and be given such undivided attention...it sure does feel good

and how so many things from our life experiences we can relate with each other

and how she manages to make me smile with her silly pranks and get me all excited about her true-life stories...

i'm head over heels (i know i know i'm the type who falls for sumone easily)

but no women has ever made me feel this way for such a long long long time...

this one's a keeper...

single again...

2008-09-08T09:08:00.000-07:00

so long i havent blogged...so here goes nothing,

i'm single again! weehoo! i dunno what happened...one day we argued then next thing i know, i was single again.
truth be told, i'm sad really. not because i miss her, because i get lonely...so lonely untill sum unlucky contacts on my mobile becomes the victim of my loneliness ( i cud hear babyface playing in my head) and later i'd feel slightly better knowing that sumwhere out there sumone still care. ok my fingers are tired...nanti sambung!

craving....

2007-11-20T02:27:00.000-08:00

i want ice cream!!!! dont this look good? yum!

well i've been putting nothing on myself but weight nowadays.

its mostly because i'm madly inlove (thus i'm happy) and

couples only go and eat when they go out so thereI go...serve my body rite!

sayang! ure responsible for my extra 'baggage'....hahaha

life purpose

2007-11-20T01:58:00.000-08:00

sumtimes i wonder. do i have a purpose in this life?

or is it just to serve God, to be a good servant,

and prepare for the hereafter?

i've seen the world for over 20 years now,

there's so much there is to life,

so many things to look forward to,

so many things I wanna achieve

before i die.....haha

there's this car i want to get,

the house i've always dreamt of having,

the goddess wife i plan to be married to,

the wonderful children i want her to give birth to,

i'm dreaming of the impossible rite?

ok enough daydreaming now,

to conclude, i think there should be a balance,

in this life, and the life hereafter,

so make today better than yesterday and live today like there's no tommorow

but always remember God.

to all 'em ladies, know what u need to know

2007-10-07T10:42:00.000-07:00

How guys feel about girls ^_^

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down.

We always hear "the rules" from the female point of view...

Nowhere are there rules from the male side.

These are our rules!

Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!

1. Men ARE NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don'thear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the fullmoon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do notwork! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answer s to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only If youwant help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1 . A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago isinadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like theVictoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something o \r tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no ideawhat mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don'twant to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine...really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation , or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

I love this, whoever wrote this rocks! finally the gender has spoken, haha - Arif

honesty

2007-10-03T08:32:00.000-07:00

why is it so hard for women (in general) to be honest about their feelings with men?

why is it hard to face the truth tho the truth hurts is really the saviour of all situation?

why do u have to lie in your face of loved ones so u can save ur sorry little ass?

if you think that u lie so that u wont hurt us, u damn wrong bitch! it hurts more

if you've moved on, just say so, we'll move on too,

its not that ure the only one left in this world, there's plenty more where u came from

i'm not being a sexist, its just some people in this world doesnt know how to appreciate GOD's species called MEN

we have a heart too, we try our best to please u and all we get in return is pain and misery

the world today

2007-10-01T03:53:00.000-07:00

it hurts to see so many young muslims nowadays not take their religion seriously, why?

whats so difficult when u have to endure 12 hours of no drink and food for the 24 hours u have?

it aint gonna kill u mate, it makes u stronger. it doesnt torture u mate, it teaches u patience.

and why are there so many young muslims that has lost their virginity before marriage?

u guys cant wait is it? or sex is just too fun to have it with only one person, ur spouse?!

so many unwanted pregnancy cases in the world nowadays that it is just sick...plain sick.

i wish i was born in a different era, an era where Islam is practised and people live harmoniously without adultery, drugs and liquor....

a dedication

2007-09-19T15:06:00.000-07:00

for all those wonderful souls i know that has touched and showed me what love meant, this flower i give to u, thank u.

feelings

2007-09-19T14:56:00.000-07:00

this might hurt to some people who know me well but let the truth be told

i really wonder why i cant have a steady relationship

and why i always end up being good friends with the person that i'm attracted to

maybe because i lend such good ears for them to spill their sorrow bout their unfaithful lovers

maybe i'm just too nice of a guy that i'm the closest thing to being....GAY

maybe i understand women more than i understand my own gender

maybe because it takes a courageous man to wear pink, because i do

maybe my heart is more fragile than the female's heart that their afraid of hurting it

my heart is already very ill mind u, filled with anger and dissapointment

or maybe i'm just not attractive enough...yeah i guess thats why!

heartache

2007-09-19T06:51:00.001-07:00

been awhile since i last wrote...

well so far life has been quite fair with me

showed me what love is, and took it away from me

guess we should never rush love

the more u rush it, the further it pushes u away

i'm so through searching for love

maybe my heart aint ready for it

maybe i've been broken once too many

or GOD took it away from me so that i can learn from my past

I have a lot more to look forward to other than love

therefore taking it easy works best for me

i'm sorry to all whose heart i've caused pain and misery

for i know not what i do

why?

2007-08-08T05:08:00.000-07:00

i saw her today, not her fully. just her arms. his car's tinting just too dark for me to look in. fuck why did i have to honk and angkat tangan to him? now i'm the one feeling like shit and all miserable. i was shaking allover and i had to tell sumone to make me feel better...kimak betul la....argh!

sick

2007-07-20T20:09:00.000-07:00

i feel like shit.

i cant remember the last time i was ill.

also, i feel that being sick is a blessing from GOD, knowing that HE cares.

its been three days already and my cold, flu, fever or whatever is still not gone.

this is good, ALLAH knows best.

on LOVE

2007-07-12T07:31:00.000-07:00

its never to late to tell that person u love that u love them. only that if they're no longer around, and u've never told them in any way that u love them, then ure left with guilt.

today I faced one of the most challenging day of my life, my dad was undergoing an operation. suddenly the fear of losing your old man again came all over me. i was scared, of never seeing him again. before he left for the OT this morning, i shook his hand, kissed him on the forehead and told him that I love him.
still scared, but i felt a slight relieved. because i've already said to him the words i've always wanted him to know.

just yesterday the both of us sat down and had a nice conversation while waiting for the admission people to secure him a room at the hospital.

being his son, i shared most of his interest, cars, cameras, watches and others. while he was reading the papers and i reading the photography magazine...we interfeered each others focus and chatted. tho there are may things dat he and i dont agree with, we have a lot more in common. somehow in a long time, i've missed spending more time with him and all this while when he wud just disagree and breaks my foolish heart, i've regretted of not treating him better.

because we never know when we might loose the people we love, therefore telling abah that i love him is sufficient for me. he's the most wonderful man i know, with a kind heart and firm standings. he's my hero.

now abah's surgery went swiftly and he is now recovering. i thank Allah for giving me a chance to repay all he's done for me. also to my friends who knew and prayed for his condition, Allah bless you and I LOVE you All. i cudnt have faced all this on my own.

2007-07-10T20:00:00.000-07:00

what the fuck is wrong u?

i dont fucking know u, u dont even fucking know me.

suke hati nenek aku la nak add sape pun dlm friendster aku, its mine u asswipe.

why dont u start looking in the mirror before u start blaming others?

for everyone's sake, please act your age, mcm budak kecik

just a dream

2007-07-06T13:38:00.000-07:00

i just woke up from a terrible dream. in my dream there was she, looking so innocently beautiful and gorgeous. GOD knows how much I miss u, sigh. I'f only u'd listen to what I have to say, maybe u'd still b here by my side. i know that we cant be together anymore, not in this lifetime. goodnight, angel of mine.

getting crazier by the day

2007-07-03T05:18:00.000-07:00

today, i was stalking....shit! I hate my condition now. I seem so desperate to know, to care, to be there tho im not needed. I feel like shit. I feel miserable. I feel like throwing up. Why cant i just move on and live life again? why is it so hard to let go? she doesnt love me anymore...bet she dont even think about me at all. then why shud i care? i open each of her friends profile just to get a glimpse of her. OMG why! i think i need proffesional help....imma go see a doctor

Mirul's BBQ party

2007-06-30T16:18:00.000-07:00

I'm in no mood to type....its just that last nite me and NaDd went to Mirul's place in Langat for makanz. There were so much food but so little beautiful women accept two, Peanut and Intan. One is my best friends gurl and the other is Amirul's sister. haha.

However, the BBQ was awesome, we had so much fun, laughed so much, got thrown into the pool. There were lounge music, ambient lighting, lovely food, good and best friends. So its nothing less than perfect.

Many thanks to Mr and Mrs Gumuri for hosting the eventand providing us the food.

Also to Amirul, Intan, Hijjaz, Akmal, Danial, Aiman for being such warming host.

there's no telling how much i miss you

2007-06-18T06:09:00.000-07:00

saw ur picture today, u look happy...with him. he looks happy, with u. guess now i gotta accept the fact ure no longer mine and u've found sumone, sumone to shower u with love and happiness. deep down, i'm still not over you, i still cant believe we're no longer together. i need u more than anything in the world, to have ur touch, ur warmth, ur love. i'm trying so hard to forget u rite now it actually hurts. i cant go on another realtionship, it'll be rebound. why did u have to go? u cud've let me know...i'm all alone now.