sick

i feel like shit.

i cant remember the last time i was ill.

also, i feel that being sick is a blessing from GOD, knowing that HE cares.

its been three days already and my cold, flu, fever or whatever is still not gone.

this is good, ALLAH knows best.

on LOVE

its never to late to tell that person u love that u love them. only that if they're no longer around, and u've never told them in any way that u love them, then ure left with guilt.

today I faced one of the most challenging day of my life, my dad was undergoing an operation. suddenly the fear of losing your old man again came all over me. i was scared, of never seeing him again. before he left for the OT this morning, i shook his hand, kissed him on the forehead and told him that I love him.
still scared, but i felt a slight relieved. because i've already said to him the words i've always wanted him to know.

just yesterday the both of us sat down and had a nice conversation while waiting for the admission people to secure him a room at the hospital.

being his son, i shared most of his interest, cars, cameras, watches and others. while he was reading the papers and i reading the photography magazine...we interfeered each others focus and chatted. tho there are may things dat he and i dont agree with, we have a lot more in common. somehow in a long time, i've missed spending more time with him and all this while when he wud just disagree and breaks my foolish heart, i've regretted of not treating him better.

because we never know when we might loose the people we love, therefore telling abah that i love him is sufficient for me. he's the most wonderful man i know, with a kind heart and firm standings. he's my hero.

now abah's surgery went swiftly and he is now recovering. i thank Allah for giving me a chance to repay all he's done for me. also to my friends who knew and prayed for his condition, Allah bless you and I LOVE you All. i cudnt have faced all this on my own.

what the fuck is wrong u?

i dont fucking know u, u dont even fucking know me.

suke hati nenek aku la nak add sape pun dlm friendster aku, its mine u asswipe.

why dont u start looking in the mirror before u start blaming others?

for everyone's sake, please act your age, mcm budak kecik

just a dream

i just woke up from a terrible dream. in my dream there was she, looking so innocently beautiful and gorgeous. GOD knows how much I miss u, sigh. I'f only u'd listen to what I have to say, maybe u'd still b here by my side. i know that we cant be together anymore, not in this lifetime. goodnight, angel of mine.

getting crazier by the day

today, i was stalking....shit! I hate my condition now. I seem so desperate to know, to care, to be there tho im not needed. I feel like shit. I feel miserable. I feel like throwing up. Why cant i just move on and live life again? why is it so hard to let go? she doesnt love me anymore...bet she dont even think about me at all. then why shud i care? i open each of her friends profile just to get a glimpse of her. OMG why! i think i need proffesional help....imma go see a doctor