getting crazier by the day

today, i was stalking....shit! I hate my condition now. I seem so desperate to know, to care, to be there tho im not needed. I feel like shit. I feel miserable. I feel like throwing up. Why cant i just move on and live life again? why is it so hard to let go? she doesnt love me anymore...bet she dont even think about me at all. then why shud i care? i open each of her friends profile just to get a glimpse of her. OMG why! i think i need proffesional help....imma go see a doctor